I don't hate you, Kumaki. I don't think anybody here does.
The problem is that the world doesn't work the way you want it to. It would be so much easier if it did. And I agree - I would think it would be a lot easier if the world worked the way I wanted it to. But it doesn't. The real world isn't made to order for any particular person.
See, when I (or someone else) say stuff like:
* We cannot ban people for "Writing in the same thread as Kumaki" or "Quoting my posts".
* It would help if you read the documentation before asking questions.
* We must have rules and principles that apply the same for any member.
* Writing in random caps and swearing at people makes you come across in a screaming, aggressive way.
...and so on, this is not random things we say to annoy you, or because we hate you - This is the way the world is. It would help if you read the documentation properly before you asked (and since the information you needed was in there, you obviously didn't). The nature of running a forum with hundreds of members makes it necessary to have rules applicable equally for all. And so on. And you fly in the face of people who says things like this and call them this and that and say that they hate you or "won't give you a shred of support" and so on...but it really isn't something that could be realistically changed. You have the choice in your hand - You can continue to beat yourself ragged against the world, or you could try to develop strategies to deal with the way the world is, but either way, the choice is yours.
Does ZXDunny put that quote in his sig just to "make fun of you"? Possibly. Or, possibly, because it turned out a funny phrase. I'd hazard the first one, myself, but either way this is the way the world is: You write something on the internet - Others can read it and quote it. The only way to make it impossible for others to quote you is not to write. If that is not an option, you'll need a strategy to cope with people reading and quoting. It's as simple as that. And when people tell you this, it is not because we hate you, it is just a stating of the facts. The way the world is.
And, about haters and friends: Look at yourself. Look at how things change. In the beginning, I was your best of friends, according to yourself - I helped you figure out the TRS-80 emulator and find the games that you remembered. Me and ZXDunny were your allies when "the neckbeards" couldn't understand how programming in C or (*shudder*) Java could be unnecessarily complex. ZXDunny wrote this nice little Basic that you could use for a little programming on the go. Now, you're convinced that we hate you. DaMummy was "up to no good" and the "type" who wilfully disrupts conversations just for fun. You were to "bonk" him on sight. Now, he's best of friends and your ally. Lately, apparently, mccobit also hates you, and that despite the fact that he patiently has helped you through several problems. One day friends, the next day "hate", and then back again. Does this make sense at all? Do you truly, honestly, believe that peoples personalities change around like this? Or is it, maybe, possibly, the case that you tend to overreact to the smallest things when you are feeling insecure, and that suddenly makes you reevaluate everyone and everything whenever things don't go your way? Because, honestly, having seen DaMummy and ZXDunny around for a fairly long time, I must say that I have certainly not detected any personality changes on that level, and I doubt anybody else has either.
Because you do that when you get into insecure territory. When there is something you don't get, you get insecure, and when you get insecure you are convinced that everyone around you are making fun of you, and when you get that feeling, you lash out at people. Aggressively, unfairly and baselessly. Which has both the effect of making you look ridiculous (and thus induces people to actually make fun of you - What DaMummy refered to as "setting yourself up with a target on the tail" or whatever it was), and the effect of alienating the people who are, patiently, trying to help. "But NOBODY else are getting these BARBED REMARKS" - Oh yes they do. Or not, as the case might be - a not insignificant amount of what you perceive as barbed or poisoned comments reads completely innocent to most of us. But do look back at people who has had similar traits of lashing out at people who try to help, or impatiently demanded that their problems be solved NOW, DAMMIT!!! Look back at threads with hakmanplayer or RedBaron or people like that. They were getting far more of barbed comments and flat out hostilities. In comparison, you are getting treated with rather soft gloves.
That does not change your experience, of course. And when someone has had experiences that has lead to bullying or insecurity before in their lives, then sometimes the trigger for believing that someone is making fun of you is very, very sensitive. There is, however, a difference between the belief/personal experience on one hand and the actual reality and intentions of others on the other. You have a choice, Kumaki. You can choose to try to work with this and try to deal with the world as it is. Or you can decide that your own belief and experience ought to shape the world, and rage against anyone who don't agree. I'm fairly certain that it isn't yet too late to do the former on these boards. If you want to. But, again: It is your choice.
