I can relate to that, it usually means there's always too much on one's mind at the same time and it needs a break.
Hopefully your music helps in the long run.
Could you make a proper scan of the fingering chart shown above?
It's really useful and I'd like to print it and put it into my violin cases.
Have you tried the fretters yet? Mine's working well.
I do not have the money to purchase a set.
However I have been practicing with the fingering chart and a tuner to get an idea of where the notes are. The antique book is very nice.
You are right my mind is clouded heavily. A career path I do not like. Debt and a fiancée who has been having existential crisises frequently. It's absurdly tough.
Also my jobs require a lot of physical labor and standing for most of 8 hours straight. I am always in pain by the end of the week and my family seems to think the my pain matters not and weekends are physical labor time for them.
So for three week ends straigh I haven't. I have not had proper rest. Last week I went 6 days straight over the week end frequently doing stuff non stop, and having my bank account drop to -38.50.
Yeah it's amazing I can function. I took the inch of rum because I was in so much pain I was limping, it really did help. However some of my family got irritated at me since me being drunk meant I couldn't comply with thier plans they never informed me of prior.
I hate venting. I detest it but I have no where else to really go. I feel like a failure and my mother is constantly bad mouthing me to my fiancée. However she points out things to them which I say for months and magically it clicks.
Yeah I've been stressed. At least I was able to get back into writing again.
Tomorrow I can see about scanning it for you!