Guys, Im back, it is kinda of a bummer to see me coming back here so often, but It has been a wicked year so far (not really on the good side, but there is some of it) and I just feel like leaving some rants and an overview of how this year has been for me, plus some reflection about it and insight.
So in the beginning of 2016 I made my plans more than clear:
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to stop putting filth in my body (wich I acomplished);
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o start doing something that gives me complacent (been learning to play acoustic guitar but due to a lot of stuff happening I havent had time to dedicate myself to it like I should, so I dont have enaught knowledge to write anything proper, like I wanted to, and Im very limited...);
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to get a job (the job market nowadays is an absolute joke, my country wich is Portugal makes part of the free market and what is happening is that the salary is so low and the search for a job is so huge due to the recent brazilian crisis (and the refugees but in a slower scale, for now, but those bastards will surelly come) and everyone has been spamming our enterprises like crazy. I putted so much effort into being part of something but everywhere I went to I either worked to "warm up" without getting paid and got fired quickly like when I worked in a sushi bar for a whole afternoon and night, or got people that said they'd give me work (not a job, just paid work) and havent contacted me yet, and also the telecomunications fiasco..... It's been crazy and the search for a job or even work was a dead end, but it also enlightened me in some ways and I'll talk about it soon);
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to meet people with similar interests, (I met lots of people this year, but none shared much in comon with me, and no one found me worthy enaught to want to be a bit part in my life, a litle more than cameo so to speak...);
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to get into university (it didnt happen)
What obviously happened was nothing went like I expected and nothing went like I wanted it to happen, but I started to really think about it and have a ton of self reflection.
So what I aimed and what I am aiming right now is to build the roots to becoming self suficient, no one is gonna give me a proper job so I can buy a piece of land in countryside and try to live a simple and happy life. All-in-alI I might as well do what I do best,
to look after myself alone as I always did, and what I've done so far is
a website for my freelance multimedia work on wix.com (I've putted it online, and I'm already facing the first dificulty of it, wich is: I dont just have to pay for using the sevice monthly, as I also have to pay for a web adress montly... jesus now I get it why people make websites from scratch, and that is another plan Im going for, I'll talk about it later).
I also enrolled on a free multimedia CET course (Technologic Degree) wich gives me the equivalent of a bachelor degree, what I hope to acomplish with that course is to get better at what I do and
get more knowledge on how to build a proper website!
2 days ago I got enlightened,the providence gave me the best idea I ever had to look after myself without needing a job.
I have great plans to make a website that can attract people for good reasons, I aim to make a website that instead of promoting stupidity like "9GAG" for example I want to make a website with a similar scope but more like a blog that helps people, by giving them a repo of usefull tips, promoting good values and overall make a portal for positive propaganda not to remove the beautifull dignity of living but to make it more complete by using the internet for something that can help instead of addicting people in useless consumerist shit, I dont know how making money with websites works just by having user flow on it, but I'll have to figure it out. I have my idea very well defined but I wont explicitly explain it for good reasons heh
So I finally got a plan now, I want to make my freelance website get exposed, I also want to make a positive website that gives me enaught money to buy a piece of land and give me the possibilities to find a good traditional wife in Portugal and try to be happy, and I want to get done with my course as soon as I can (it will take me 1 year and a half). Europe is literally a shadow of what it once was and the economic crisis of 2008 is just a smell of what is going to come, the clock is ticking and Im finally feeling the pressure of what it means to leave the rat race, I want to make this work, I want to be abble to reach these goals no matter at what cost, I've been kicked around for so long but I'll always fight back, thats what this year has teached me.
Okay Im done with this long ass rambling text...