A formal apology to the Moderators and Users of boards.openpandora.org

[Aether Lion]

Hey there Moderators, Users, Admins, and whoever is not in those categories. 
I just came back earlier than the 2 weeks I was going to stay off.
I then saw that I was reported for typing something in my thread in the trading section.
I then went to the ModeratorCP to view the report as messaged to do, and then I saw everyone saying that they did not want me as a mod. 
Look, I want to apologize firsthand for not being on to handle this sooner, and for not leaving any kind of apology directly after saying this.
I know, I know, I have an "excuse" for saying all that was said. And, well, I have been really, really mentally assaulted by my ex.
He has been on my mind for a month and 2 days now. (Which is when we broke up) I, just can't deal with stress properly, I fail miserably at it.
Between that and having a brother who you can't even call your brother because of what he has done to you, and other things, I feel pretty messed up.
I don't want to sit here and write a sob story, and be forgiven, I want to just formally apologize, and I know I was in the wrong with using ignorant, and pitiful racial slurs as some form of sick joke. Like, I looked back at it and was just thinking; "Woah, I said that? Wow, how childish am I?". I don't expect to stay a staff member, but I am still pretty messed up as it is. Seeing as I just got in another fight through Twitter with my ex less than an hour ago. I just did want to take some time to apologize in a civilized manner. I am going to continue to stay off of OpenPandora for another couple of days, maybe a month. Yet, I will be back. I won't ever forget about OpenPandora. I know I am pretty hated around here, but, I have been in this position of being hated more than some.
In that time, whatever you decide to do with my account is up to you, and whatever it is that you do, I will wait and see when I return.
I just need some help to calm me down, whether it be therapy, or a vacation, I just need to go relax.
Be Right Back Guys, 
With Love,
~Polukus~
 

 

[Wally]

Forgiven

 

[2bit]

Polukus , we understand that stress does that . I didn't attack your MOD status ( in fact we need at least one loose cannon mod to keep balance with hailraizer's über professionality ) I just was wandering as EvilDragon gave you mod powar ( more fun than power ) then you just ... go . However I think real life SHOULD be more important than digital life and thus my reason for accepting your apology .

 

[ghostpatch]

no biggie,

I'd say leave her mod status untouched. Theres nothing wrong with being a little off, saying things you shouldn't have, feeling sorry about it and apologize. I usually like honest people.

 

[_wb_]

Apology accepted.

Also, I don't think you're hated here, at least not by me.

I lol-ed at the tags on this thread

 

[Fzero]

I missed the Trading section post then...

Still, forgiveness is a good trait to have.

Apology has been made, plus I'm sure most of us are old enough to understand how relationships can/will often cause all sorts of headfo0ks.

Water under bridges, new days new dawns, bygones be bygones and all that...

Take a nice holiday with someone, forget the day to day and have some fun. That kind of behavior can work wonders

 

[elwing]

apologies accepted... can I ask for what?

 

[Binky]

Real life gets priority. I'm happy for you to stay on the mod team.

 

[Null]

Now i'm looking to buy some Polaris missiles do you happen to have any in stock?

 

[Aether Lion]

Polukus , we understand that stress does that . I didn't attack your MOD status ( in fact we need at least one loose cannon mod to keep balance with hailraizer's über professionality ) I just was wandering as EvilDragon gave you mod powar ( more fun than power ) then you just ... go . However I think real life SHOULD be more important than digital life and thus my reason for accepting your apology .

Can this be edited to have proper grammar? I don't understand it. I kinda get the point of the message, so, thanks.

Forgiven

Well, I have to thank you for giving me enough sanity to be here right now, it means a lot.

no biggie,

I'd say leave her mod status untouched. Theres nothing wrong with being a little off, saying things you shouldn't have, feeling sorry about it and apologize. I usually like honest people.

Her? Thanks. >  I am a guy. >-< (Well, wussy may not be an understatement. >->)


Thank you for forgiving me though.

Apology accepted.

Also, I don't think you're hated here, at least not by me.

I lol-ed at the tags on this thread

Thanks


Well, I have been having "ex" problems since the 10th of January, shortly after I joined. I have been bothered that long (emotionally) .


Oh, and not only ex problems, but if you read, my brother has caused trouble for all in this house. Thankfully, we kicked him out a while ago. Yet, that's a story for a different day.

Now i'm looking to buy some Polaris missiles do you happen to have any in stock?

No worries, I can't drive.

I missed the Trading section post then...

Still, forgiveness is a good trait to have.

Apology has been made, plus I'm sure most of us are old enough to understand how relationships can/will often cause all sorts of headfo0ks.

Water under bridges, new days new dawns, bygones be bygones and all that...

Take a nice holiday with someone, forget the day to day and have some fun. That kind of behavior can work wonders

Thanks. 

apologies accepted... can I ask for what?

Stupid stuff. Wait....No.


Never mind, yeah, stupid stuff.

Real life gets priority. I'm happy for you to stay on the mod team.

Thank you.


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With the help of Wally, and one other person, I am feeling a little better temporarily, still pretty stressed, and things are only going to downhill, and then back up from here.


But I will just continue to be on this emotional surfboard, riding these shit waves. >-< I need a vacation.....but no. Our family is too broke to afford it.


So, I am going to continue to be out of here until that time when I feel better.


I will be back before, or a tiny short bit after, my birthday. Which is April 25.


Keep in touch on:


Facebook - Facebook.com/Polukus (Just hit me a message prior)


Twitter - Twitter.com/Polukus


The Trevor Project - Treverspace.org/RoxasHigashime


Skype - Polukus1 (NO, I FORGOT THE PASSWORD TO Polukus, DON'T ADD IT!)


✌ Peace again. ✌


♥~Polukus~♥

 Edit: Another ex made a song for me. The song basically says I am going to rot in the Underworld, cupid is going to neglect me, and that I am forever damned to a life of being miserable. Aren't exes great?


You can message me on Facebook, Trevorspace, or Skype, if you would like to see it. It is WAAAAY too vulgar to post here....like WAAY beyond it.

 

[Kumaki]

Polukus, you certainly are not hated here by me.

I just felt that such comments, made in the public forum, were not becoming to a Mod.  We all slip up on occasion, and post things we probably shouldn't, and this includes me.

What bothered me was your failure to respond when called out by almost every Mod we have over the comments you made.  I had no idea you were offline.

I am truly sorry to hear about the stress in your life currently, and you are right to take a short vacation from here to deal with that stuff...real life is always more important, and worth being engaged in...even if it rips you apart sometimes.

At this point, I do not support having your status as a Mod removed, but, a short self-imposed vacation is not a bad idea - it is never a good idea to be a Mod...and post things...when you are in a bad way in real life.  As I have said before, and it is worth repeating...a good rule of thumb is to always read, at least three times...what you are going to post before you do it.  And a few non-mods (who will not be named) would do well to follow that rule as well.

I wish you well, Polukus, and hope that, when you return, you can continue your Mod duties...and show the kind of leadership potential I think that you do have.  what you need is someone to take you under their wing a little bit, becauase you have much potential and little polish.  And I do not mean this in any insulting manner, so I hope you do not take offense to my calling it theway I see it.

Be well, Polukus.

 

[ghostpatch]

Her? Thanks. >  I am a guy. >-< (Well, pussy may not be an understatement. >->)
Thank you for forgiving me though.

ah, didn't check your profile...   no need to thank me - didn't blame you to begin with.

usually the first few relationships are only good for practise anyway and it really helps to have practise when you seriously don't want to mess things up... I don't mean to judge your relationship,.. just saying..

 

[DaMummy]

i dont know you, so that makes you one of the better current mods to me

Uncalled for

 

[sebt3]

Uncalled for

I dont know you is this mod, but he(she) have probably better todo than focusing on our mummy

 

[DaMummy]

i stand by my statement.....and my signature

 

[FaeMinx]

^ Drat!  looks like I'm going to have to get use to seeing green *missing* text in DaMummy's posts...

      ... It's a pity because I want to know what he said!!

- The only time I could be offended is if someone is being hurtful for no good reason or they insist an untruth is a truth (AND being hurtful at the same time).

Everything else, including *beeeep*, *censored*, and ********* is likely to amuse me. :3 

For instance, this is the funnies thing I've seen in ages!  :lol:  ::

[quote kuru, on 12 Feb 2013 - 23:19, said:]

Good to hear my persistence over this matter, which I dedicated quite some time to

 

[2bit]

i dont know you, so that makes you one of the better current mods to me

Uncalled for

Sorry to be off topic but Does Damummy HAVE to be censored ? It's not like he's racial .

 

[TrashyMG]

Personally I'm staying out of it... I'll let the other mods handle censorship.. I'll stick to moving topics in the right spot, fixing Dup threads and helping others with Pandora related things. I don't like drama nor politics. 

 

[moxie]

It might be worth considering that most of the mod team is rather recently appointed, and for quite a long part of the time after that, not much happened that was mod-attention-worthy. That means that when something questionable happens, the differences in tolerance levels and/or willingness to use different available sanctions are made clear. These differences will, in short time, be evened out. There is currently an intra-mod discussion going on on where the lines are to be drawn an what ought to happen when they are crossed. 

This is to be expected when there is a big influx of new mods. It will shake itself out. Consider the present to be a bit unstable

 

[sebt3]

 There is currently an intra-mod discussion going on on where the lines are to be drawn an what ought to happen when they are crossed. 

Keep to what the best mod here did : remove illegal stuff (rom&porn mostly) and warn for that, lock uncontrolable threads and keep the barrier low for the rest especially in threads calling for fun in first post... Prometheus did not censor WizardStan when he posted that quote, and I have to agree with her opinion. Why a quote of that is a problem ? (even in a sig, signatures could even be disabled to anonymous users and you can disable the view of it. Jeez even a good ad-blocker could allow you to remove that particular sniplet if you want) 

My previous quote in this thread is from an uncontrolable mod imho. and theses kind of actions show our community under a bad lights to newcomers.

anyway, that's just 2cents from someone who dont want to be a mod