But I do adore female aesthetics in terms of gentleness, softness, delicateness of feature and form, innocence, joy, radiance of love and pureheartedness, caring, humility, patience, and creative self expression particularly in delightful rainbow pastel hues and general all round heavenly cuteness.
I frequently wonder where these stereotypes come from. Your adorations sound like they come from Victorian and earlier male human expectations of what a "proper woman" should be (which still seems to be present to some degree in human societies I have been exposed to), not that there is anything wrong with that. One of the things I admire and respect most about females is their aggressiveness, as well as various other things that are opposite of some others in your list.
Well, I'm not sure where it originated from, but as a kid, teenager, and young adult I certainly did believe that is what femininity was... So you can imagine how consistently I was disappointed by people in general.
As a kid I always preferred playing with the girls, but didn't actually dislike the boys.
That all changed when the teen years hit.
All of a sudden males became gross, vulgar assholes and girls actually liked them!
I was now the freak and mercilessly, cruelly teased and called names that were not true at all.
I went through life believing all around me were degenerates, but I despised males most of all.
It was only in my mid-twenties that I finally realised that human beings were pretty much the same - regardless of gender, and that the sacred ideal I called 'femininity' had very little to do with actual females.
... which is why I am neither Gay, bi nor straight... and why I felt the need to clearly state what I personally meant by 'female aesthetics'.
So being a physically attractive female doesn't automatically make you attractive in my eyes. You would have to tick most of that criteria before I showed any genuine interest.
Also if I were to meet a male that could be described that way they would become my new bestest Friend4EVA!! *though sex would almost certainly be out of the question*
I also came to the realization that because those are the qualities I adore, I should be aspiring to and working towards those qualities within myself, and that's just what I have been doing.
I'm not really concerned if my standards are unrealistic to (Edit: hold to), because I know what is important to me, and I see no value in compromising on that.
The more those qualities are realized within myself, the more 'in love' I become... which is pure awesomesauce.
Imagine what the world would be like if everyone was 'in love', but didn't need anyone else but themselves to be in that state.
... just imagine....
Edit: I just feel I need to state that while I am describing a very negative attitude I use to hold towards humanity, that is no longer the case.
I am not completely healed yet, but I absolutely am in support of the concept 'live and let live'.
Now that I no longer resent males for... Well, being male.
Or females for finding males attractive and having what I would call 'male qualities' themselves, I simply acknowledge that I am different... Perhaps even unique, and that is nobodies fault. It simply is the way it is.
Amazingly when you no longer place personal expectations on people you learn to appreciate them as they are.
Edit edit: Oops... looks like I engaged in some unconscious passive + not so passive aggressive behaviour again.
Sorry guys.