Hi to everyone, I'm not sure really where to begin, but firstly to say such a BIG thankyou to everyone that has had me in their thoughts over previous months. (For those people wondering what this person is on about, I was unforunately blessed with advanced cancer a while ago) It's not a case of ignoring the Pandora community, far from it! The plan of action was to get to a stage where I could pop up and go "whoop! whoop! The evil beast is dead! (not me by the way, meaning the Lymphoma within me).
I'd got Christmas out the way, and my treatment seemed to be going really well, it had taken a lot of my time, energy and other things out of me, and I really didn't want to keep popping up every other day or week saying things are going good, or whatever. I really didnt want my input on the forum, the forum that has meant so much to me, to be some kinda sad blog on the ups and downs of my life, when I know that so many people are going through their own personal battles. I just didnt want to any post I put to reflect how I was, and then detract from the point of the post, if that makes sense.
The thing is, Having been able to read a number of posts recently, and seeing how you guys have thought about me, I just felt I needed to put your minds at ease so to speak, that i haven't shuffled off this mortal coil, and rather than wonder, I'd let you know the score, so to speak. And I promise I'll cut it short
After Christmas I was hoping that things were going well, unfortunately my father suffered a heart attack and stroke, which had kept him hospitalised for some months. Unfortunately whilst visiting I picked up a viral and blood infection (work it out! you go to a hospital to dump your viruses at their door, and get better, you never think you'd become ill just by visiting lol!)
Anywhoo! I picked up an infection of the blood, which didnt help with my Lymphoma. So to cut a long story short ( and you're all thinking this is the "short version)...
I've not been too well of late, and not so sure how things will be, I won't go into how my day goes, as it will put you off any meal you wish to eat lol! I've really enjoyed being part of the community, being disabled (apart from the cancer), It was an outlet for me, which i really enjoyed paticipating in. I've just not had the strength of late to use the computer, as it takes me a long time to overcome the physical problems each day.
I'm just going day by day, Hope is always a good thing. I'm awaiting some more test results, to see where I go from here, I just didnt want you guys to think I was being ignorant, and ignoring the good wishes that have been sent. I'm not sure how things will go, but whilst I'm able, I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who has thought of me and my family. I really hope that the community continues, as it is a friendship along with swapping knowledge, and has really helped me.
As Einstein once said,
"You have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else."
But I was always crap at games lol!
Thankyou to everyone, and your thoughts mean a lot, a HELL of a lot! My thoughts go to all those who may stumble upon these words, with problems that they are strugglig with, I'm wishing you well. I hope this all makes sense, as my brain doesnt work as well as my thoughts, or ... my thoughts don't work as well as my brain, but hopefully you'll understand.
Best regards, milinks ( Mark Lincoln)
